Drugs and alcohol are very dangerous for you. You have very strong feelings and they can provide a form of escape from those feelings. I say a “form of” because they aren’t a real escape. They are only a temporary one; the good feeling is fleeting and may leave you feeling worse off and regretful.
In my own experience I’ve had a lot of fun drinking, but usually I’ve always ended up with some form of regret afterward. Particularly as I’m older and if I drink too much, I get nasty hangovers.
Drinking has helped in some ways, it makes me impulsive, but has also given me the ability to feel comfortable expressing myself. That comfort is probably illusory. I should be able to express myself honestly and openly without it. Still, when I’ve had a couple drinks I feel comfortable writing in my journal when I might otherwise not. It’s let me say things to lovers I might not have the courage to say. Still it’s a crutch, I should be able to do without it.
I’ve not had much personal experience with illegal drugs. They just don’t interest me that much. I’ve known many people ruin their lives over them though.
If you feel you might benefit from drinking or doing drugs, try therapy, try counseling. Don’t drink by yourself, don’t drink with others that drink too much. Don’t use illegal drugs, it simply isn’t worth the risk.
Be careful, if you do make a mistake while on intoxicants you may not have anyone you can trust to help you. Well, you may find out if you do. Mommy and Daddy are never going to bail you out.